I sat for hours in concourse A,the plane delayed, delayed again,surrounded by a young mother with three hungry children and two elderly couples who played endless rounds of go fish and men in dark suitson their cell phones and girls filming dances for TikTok, when I looked up and saw out the window a double rainbow,ridiculously pretty against the slate […]
Alone, I am too small to meet the great weight of your pain.Loving, I want to turn toward you. Aching, I want to turn away.But yesterday I rested for a time on a wide gray rock in an alpine cirque.In my stillness I felt how surely I was cradled by the world so much vaster than I. There, surroundedby greatness, […]
after Jane Hirshfield Oh look, I say to the catYou have a soup belly. I jiggle and wiggle her soft, floppy middle.She does not love it.I get it, I say to her. SometimesI don’t want to be touched either.More truly, I do want to be touched, but only in the way I want to be touched. The cat holds her paws midair, […]
Starting here, I want to rememberthe spaciousness that emerges in mewhen my heart knows itself as an expressionof the one great heart. In those moments,when the I slips away and the we is all,when love is unbound from the wallsof my chest and expands across mountainsand deserts and oceans and returns with the peaks and tide in each breath, then the […]
Already the river is lighter in color, less brown, less turbid, more translucent. Just yesterday the currents were thick with mud and logs, needles and sticks and bits of once-living debris. Now that the furious flood has lost its force, the gravel and sand have begun their settling.Whatever was floating now restson the banks and all that is left suspended in the water is what […]
after “Stone” by Charles Simic I cannot make them out, these strange writings on my inner walls. Each time I feel closerto deciphering the marks,it’s as if they rearrangethemselves into newmore mysterious lines. Some part of me deeplywants to read them, to know their secrets.She takes out her eraser,her pencil, and begins the translations again.Some part of me sitseasily in the […]
My favorite alpine skinny dipping holea dry rock bed, an inverted monumentto drought— as if I needed one more reminderof how fragile it is, this world,how parched our heartscan become. On the long hike home I swim in the seriousnessof what is not here, remember how it felt to slipinto the snowmelt,how my whole being shivered in elation, how the […]