for Vivian Just today, you asked meto hold the front door open,your own hands too fullwith a peach smoothie,a cup of tea, your backpackand dance bag and lunch box.It gave me such joy,this small act of service,though now I also see itas practice in letting you go.I followed you out the doorinto the frost-limned world,yellow leaves […]
I hold a sunflower in my heart,not in golden bloom, but filledwith small, dry seeds,a desiccated husk of a disk, brittleand brown. I hold it hereas a reminder some giftslook unwanted at first.I remember the autumn afternoonI went to pull the dead remainsfrom the garden, then watchedas the Stellar’s jays landedatop the tall dark stalksand […]
As I cry chopping onions,I imagine the onionscry for me, too, andwith each slice, theywonder when I will everpeel off all these layers I’vebeen adding in the nameof growth. When I addthe onions to the pan,they become more clear.You can do it, too,they seem to say. Let the world open youand weep with the giftof […]
Through the throngand past the chatterwe slipped into a smallblue sitting roomand there at the edgeof the chaos, she told mewhat the doctor said.The world becamewhirlpool, no shorein sight, andwe met in a perfectstillness, holdingto each other, ourfriendship like driftwood,no way to steer, butfor that moment, wefloated, floated! no small thing asall around usuncertainty crestedand […]
Like a river in flood stage,her smile broke its banksand changed the landscapeof the room, or perhapsher smile was more likea night-blooming cactusthat charges the duskwith honest perfume.That moment she stood thereand let the cheering in,receiving our appreciation like rain,oh, her smile then, may I never forget it,so rare, this gift released,the girl untamed.
I thought the wayto hold youwas by foldingmyself around you,gentle but tight,the way the handwraps around pebble,acorn, coin,and now thatyou’re not here,the love no less great,I stand outsidewith my empty,upturned handsand understandopening themis the only wayto hold light.